Sunday, February 16, 2014
Suspend disbelief... #rhizo14
Way above us, our gaze is lost amid an unfolding story of the clouds. I am in wonder, I am four or perhaps five years old....and now you lie beside me.
Who would believe us now, when we recount the fluid sense that was there, that instant, speaking to us?
Youthful momentum rebounds from rock to rock, I go careering down the hillside. With each bound I am flying, I am part of all and electron libre.
Freedom, you can see me now.
Mid-way down the slope, I am in flow, joy, exhilaration. The summer sun is ecstatic, the mountain laughs but lets me live.
I inspire the sheep bleating echoes from the valley.
You are far behind me, less carefree, more calculating perhaps, but witness to grace.
One breathless leap...you are there.
We are together.
A secret to keep.
It was mine. It was my friend, the tree in the garden. We enjoyed so many adventures together. Even felled, he lives on in these leaves.
Seeing as you're here, I shall let you share my branch, just this instant. Shh.. make no noise for fear that the giants break our hide.
Tread carefully, the passage over the wall was my secret.
Not even my brother knew about it...before you came.
If you dare, you can follow me, your foot there, your hand here.
Let yourself slip. Noone can see you, now.
That my friend is the secret tunnel away from the wall.
Don't worry, I've been here loads of times.
Keep your head down.
Ha ha ha ha...
Rewind for fear.
I can't swear, I don't have permission. I am way too young now.
Thank goodness you are there.
The curtains are moving.
The monster, the wolf is here in the shadows.
Making meaning, making terrible meaning the breeze from the window ajar.
I am convinced, I am afraid, I am its prey...
if it weren't for your presence, downstairs in the kitchen.
The wolf is kept at bay by cutlery clattering in the sink.
My grief is standing on a slope.
His frame is boxed rudely. The weight is taken by Dickensian extras dressed for typhoid victims.
Death is so bloody unmodern.
The weight of the earth was stacked up around the rectangular drop, disguised for the occasion by red velveted carpet.
Wind-swept rain pricks and veils my tears, standing lopsidely on a shallow slope.
This is how it happens, to those one loves.
No denying the brutal melodrama of an absurd separation.
Unable to bare the enormity of the scene, I look around, across to the Tor anchored away on the levels.
Defiantly a child-drawn rainbow appears.
It gives me closure and hope.
He lives with me now. He is not gone, his gouache is etched in my soul.
I shall bear grief with joy.
We don't end my friend, we become particles for a child's studious science.